Health Link: Looking to gain muscle? Buy Really Struggling
By Groovybabe • Sep 27th, 2007 • Category: stugglingAfter my one night of relatively good sleep, my pattern is up the wall again. Last night I fell to sleep about 11pm and woke up at 2am. I lay there until 4am when it became apparent that sleep was not forthcoming. So instead of laying there wasting time and then not getting to do anything in the day that I needed to do I spent a few hours doing housework and computer work. By the time I started feeling weary it was 6.30 am and too late to go to bed. After my son went to school at 8am I went back to bed, was asleep in minutes, woke up only once briefly before dragging my sorry self out of bed at 1pm.
Over the last few days I have been following my diet as best I can. During the day I am fine, I am well within my allowance and I write everything I eat in my journal. It’s when I wake up at 2am unable to get back to sleep that is my problems start. When I first started dieting I would sometimes take a Nytol about 9pm so that I could manage not to eat in the evening/night (my weakest time of the 24hrs) but that was back when it worked! Last night I felt in my head that I would keep trying and plodding along but my actions were very much saying I’d all but given up.
Something I’d stopped doing much of this week is weighing in daily. I know many of you don’t agree with my daily ritual and I started thinking that maybe there is something in my not doing this so often. After all, I was just putting pressure on myself that, in my insomnified state, I could not cope with. The reason I was not weighing so often was due to my broken patterns it was hard to decern when the “morning” was and thus I couldn’t get, what I felt was, an accurate reading. I was going to just leave it until Friday when I weigh in on here but upon waking up this afternoon, after 5 hours sleep, I randomly decided to weigh in. Standing on the scales made me realise I need to do this. I won’t say what my reading is, although it will be a miracle if I see a loss by tomorrow, but it quickly bought everything home to me. I need to do this, I want it too and I have to concentrate on getting back into the mindset of a loser of weight. Stepping on the scales really helped me to remember why I am doing this. And that is not about any number showing back at me, just that the ritual of weighing in daily had a very valid purpose.
So I am back on track (yes, just like that, lol!) and I am thanking it my lucky stars it was for only a few hours I lost sight of my goals and achievements. Something I really need to do is make a concerted effort to drink water. Over the last few weeks I have all but given up drinking it and I think this may be playing an important role in why weakness has set in.
Tomorrow’s weigh in should be interesting, if nothing else.
Groovybabe is 14.11 stones today and feeling in control.
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*hugs*
I wish I had something constructive to say - am thinking of you,
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I don’t think weighing everyday is a good idea–but then again, I only think of that because it does not work for me and my personality. However, it works for you great, and that’s why I’m glad to hear you’re back doing it.
And when you have reported about your weigh-ins, I always get a boost myself, too. When you were marveling at my motivation… it’s really all of your doing. You made me that motivated, by tracking everything you did down, from exercise to foods to weight. Thank you 
Do not stop doing something when others might think it’s a bad idea. Good on you for sticking to your well-worked routines!
I’m sorry you are having hard time sleeping, that’s a real bummer. Don’t be too hard on yourself about the dieting during these times: I’m very lethargic myself and unable to concentrate on days when I have had too little sleep, so no wonder exercising and controlling the diet take the backseat. HUGS! Hopefully soon you can sleep more peacefully.
Jo
Thanks. My determination isnt as resolute as it has been at the moment but I have far from given up. I am still trying really hard with everything and I am sure once the sleep returns so will my determination.
Rosabel
I am sure this is just a short term issue and I will soon be as raring as I once was. I think once I see 15 stones something on the scales that will be a big boost in the direction I need.
Thanks. That’s good to hear my positivity rubbed off on you. It did me a lot of good too, I lost 40lbs after all
I am doing everything I always have in order to lose weight. I am going to the gym 3x a week, doing lots of walking, trying to drink water, writing everything I eat and counting calories plus weighing in daily… so I am sure it is only a matter of time and if I can just sleep through the night then obviously I will be removing temptation to eat in the small hours. Hopefully it is just a matter of days until I am in that 15 stone era and back on track.
When I started weightloss I felt like this - I wanted to do it but wasn’t really motivated. I knew what I had to do to get motivated and that was start exercising. So I did that (but didnt diet at first) and within a couple of weeks I was really into it all. So this is what I am trying to do again - take myself to the zone rather than wait for it to magically happen, because anyone who thinks they will wake up one day and be really motivated is very naive. It takes hard work and dedication to get into the mind set I was in and I am trying my hardest to get back there again.