Groovybabe

I am not sure what happened, again. It all started when I got ill… again. I went a couple of weeks being ill with a flu-like thing during the week, getting better saturday, going out, recovering on Monday and falling ill again on Tuesday. So, I decided to have a month off from alcohol consumption and see if that helps at all. I didn’t go out last weekend for the first time in probably six months. I didn’t get a whole lot of sleep as I did have company so I still felt rough the next day but we’re in the week now and I have not been as ill. Just more worn out and feeling quite sick at times but it wasn’t enough to stop me doing stuff, which has helped.

So yesterday, me, my son, my friend and her daughter went to see Wall*e. I’d read quite a lot online about this in terms of obesity as its theme. Watching it, when you first see the references to this, it is quite shocking and seeing people revelling in their health problems you think Hollywood doesnt have much believe in humanity, all I saw before me was a horrible dystopia that the media informs us is going to happen if we’re not careful. But by the end of the film you see that humanity wins out and it was never really a theme about obesity as much as it was about the wider problems with contemporary humanity. Not the best film I ever saw, but worth a watch.

So being ill, I havent gone out much, and slowly been eating all the wrong foods until the point came where my eating is out of all control again. I am not sleeping properly either. I am getting down again, after being up for the last few weeks. I keep telling myself tomorrow is a new day but it never is. I dread to think what I weigh at the moment.

I had a good talk with The Boy this weekend after we’d been on and off more times than a tap and things are slowly starting to show an improvement so this is what I want to concentrate on. I know we should only ever lose weight for ourselves but I have been telling myself lately that I would like to do it for him too. He is not bothered about my figure, it has honestly never been an issue ever, but I figure if I lose weight and feel better about myself that’s going to rub off on my interaction with him.

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