Groovybabe

We all deal with stress in a number of ways. A lucky few of us breeze through life without letting anything get to us but most of us need to find a way of de-stressing. For some of us it might be alcohol, having a friend to lean on or even exercise. For me, it seems to be compulsive eating.

Going up to 19 stones you might think this is a somewhat obvious statement to make, and you would be right. But you’d be surprised just how sub-conscious it remains, even when you have confronted it and seemingly dealt with it.

For months now I have been sub-consciously eating through the night. It would range anything from 100 calories to 800 and I just felt out of control of it because it was happening when I was half asleep. For the last few weeks I have removed myself from a stressful situation and - I thought - coincidently my night time binging completely stopped. But yesterday I made the decision to do something that would bring me into contact with this stressful situation today. The result was that last night I ate in the night. It wasnt a huge amount, just 2 small bananas, a yogurt and an apple but it is the behaviour that worries more than what I consumed.

I hadn’t connected the stressful situation with my night time binging but it suddenly seems so obvious. So I have made the decision to stay well away from that environment, for my own health and wellbeing. I was umming and ahhing but it is just not worth it. I want my control back and for that to happen I need to be surrounded only by positivity. I just feel that realising what is behind the binge eating is like being given a key to unlock my cell door to freedom.

It also shows me that compulsive eating is always going to be an issue; even after losing five stones it still is. It is like an eating disorder, I guess, it is always going to be there in the background and altering your environment and keeping an eye on key triggers is the key to successfully managing it.

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